An Actress I am Not

My last blog was full of negative things that happen between woman sometimes. Well, this one will be about some positives. I'm part of a great team at church, Women's Event Team. We just recently started this for the church and it has been a total blast. I love the women that I'm serving with and we have so much fun when we get together. We are all focused on breaking down the normal barriers for women in the church. Such as not wanting to get involved because they think they are not good enough, smart enough, biblical enough, etc....you get the point. Well, this team is all about helping women lose those negative thoughts and realize that we all have them and that we all feel inferior to one degree or another. And once we realize that we each feel this way, how we can overcome it and allow God to work through our lives like He intended. I truly see amazing things happening with this team, our church and the women involved!

Today we spent 4 hours filming a skit that we are doing for an event Friday night. We are having a potluck dinner and then doing crafts/games/scrapbooking for a few hours. But in between the two, we are showing our skit. Some of this will be shown on screen (what we filmed today) and some of it will be live on stage. I think it is going to be great. We are basically showing women meeting for small group and the crazy things that we allow ourselves to think. For instance, my role is to read something from the bible out of Luke. When I volunteer to do this, you see on video what is going on in my head...."Where is Luke, is it New Testament or Old, why did I volunteer to read, someone else probably knows exactly where this is, they are all going to laugh at me when I can't find this". There is also one done similar to this on prayer and then some other issues that women fear as well. We had such a blast doing this and Scott from the church did great filming us. I know with his editing skills, it will be a work of art. Some of us were much more skilled and at ease with the camera than others. Me being one of the "others". I've done things for the church in the past and they are never easy for me. I do not feel comfortable or natural being filmed. But editing is an amazing tool. I've always ended up looking ok and people will tell me that I looked very comfortable. Let's hope that Scott and his magic editing work wonders on what we filmed today, as well! It's all so worth it!

I'll leave you with the artwork for the t-shirts we designed for our team. They were meant to get people talking and make a strong statement. I think they are working, we've had several women request one.



I'll explain in another blog why we chose to use her. It's really quit interesting.

Until next time.....

Why can't we just all get along???

Yes, it's been months since my last blog and this one is going to be one to vent! I just don't understand women sometimes. Why is that we feel so threatened, jealous, defensive, judgmental, scarred and resentful towards each other? Why is it that when women come together, such pettiness gets in the way? God meant for us to learn from each other and lift each other up. Imagine our world if women could loose these feelings towards each other. I'm not trying to lump every woman together and say that all of us are terrible towards each other. But I guarantee that each of us have felt those feelings I list towards another woman to one degree or another. Instead of trying to see the other side and understand where they are coming from. Imagine a world if all women could just stop and think before our defenses go up and we start reacting instead of just listening. I stayed away from close female relationships for a very long time due to all of this.

I know we are not all bad and many women in my life now are wonderful and they are Godly and they are very uplifting. But there are still some in my life that I wish I could change the relationship. I cannot walk away from certain ones. As much as I would like to sometimes, that is not possible. For a long time I prayed about a particular relationship and that God would put His hands all over it. And at times it seems that He is answering and at other times, it seems like we are back to square one. I guess one thing I'm learning is that I need to continually pray for this relationship. It's not going anywhere as far as I know, so why not put it on my permanent prayer list? Something else is that I cannot change anyone, I only have control over my actions and mine alone. The more I pray for this relationship, the more my heart softens towards it. It's obvious I have not prayed about it in quite some time. I'm off to spend some quiet time with God about a not so good relationship!

Until next time.....